#i'm just...very affected with how things are going right now

[astroyosei]

［愛］how would they show their love to you?

　—　safe for minors !

　—　fluffy, long + detailed !

　—　the casettes are numbered from

　　　　　　　　　　　left to right, 1- 2- 3 !

- Casette 1 -

your cards: the chariot, the ace of pentacles, the temperance reversed (lol), the IX of pentacles reversed, the king of pentacles👌

I feel like they are reallyyy into big gestures and moves when it comes to showing affection for you! I'm thinking of things like dressing up nicely, picking you up with a nice, impressive, well-kept car, going into an expensive restaurant. Like literally put on a show for you... Getting strong leo venus vibes here ngl!✨

I think they are the classical, "oldschool" gentleman type. I could clearly see a big pretty boquet of amazing fresh bloodred roses.❤️ I think they would LOVE to make every cliché thing straight out of a romcom movie to come alive in your romance.... They feel like you deserve it. That you deserve every miracle, and exaggeration, and cringey- cheesy thing they Ever saw in their life!😂😂😂

I also could feel that they are the type of men who really like to take good care of themselves!❤️ Nicely cut, clean nails and hair. And i think they smell like really good omg!!!.. you know what they might be actually straight off a fan of perfumes!!

No, they don't think it's girly. They don't think it's manly either. They just think it's a part of being a decent, clean, respectful hygienic person. Also stylish. Genderlessly. But that's strongly feels like the second most important thing here. Def the decent part is the first here👏👏

They feel like a HEALTHY masculine man!!! Who's manly enough to allow themselves to be "girly" you know what i mean. To be gentle, emotional, soft(!), sensitive, nurturing, observant, calm, collected.... features we consider divine or traditionally feminine traits.

And they doing ALL THESE naturally already! Like already before being in a relationship with you. Even before meeting you! In their everyday lives, without having their ego and pride in shambles. You'll meet them having this state of mind already and you'll love it.♡ (me too, cause honestly... It's hard to find a real man like this): )

- Casette 2 -

your cards: the VIII of pentacles reversed, the II of swords reversed, the strength(❤️!), the fool, the II of cups🥺 -

Straight off the bat, i can see that they are a very nature- orinted, or nature- lover person! I feel like they have a very strict, 9-5 / 8-4 all-day-in-the-office kind of job, so they really enjoy being outdoors, seeing plants (trees foremost!) as a high contrast to what they're seeing all day at work😂 poor thing..

I also feel like they really enjoy looking at the colors of nature... So the first thing that came to my mind about them is...Surprise trips into the nature!✨ They would genuiely cherish sharing their "comfort spaces" or such with you. I'm thinking, sharing quality time with you might be their first or most important love language!❤️

I feel like, many of you who choose this pile, ain't really a fan right now of being outdoors, hiking, going to forest trips and such, so this will be a wild new experience for you, to go dates like this✨ but let me tell you, even if you didn't think like this or didn't think about this before, y'all will enjoy it very much!!!🥰

I feel like this will be for the minority of the people who choose this pile: so you were already familiar with relaxing and spending time outdoors like this, so it won't be a whole new experience for you. But it will feel definitely different - an intimate and bonding experience with Them���<3 maybe even y'all will feel like this whole thing feels new with Them on your side ngl<3 it definitely feels special, calming and bonding at the same time

Side note, they might be also interested in photography - so it's not just about drinking in all those beautiful scenes and sights but also capturing them to keep these moments like forever -

- Casette 3 -

your cards: the moon reversed, the hermit reversed (omg😭), the II of cups, the X of swords reversed, the page of pentacles i -

This spread was more like their very own personal story they decided to bravely tell you - you better embrace it, they're SHY

So I honestly feel like y'alls future spouses - or next partners, or the one you thought about;) are just reallyy the shy type when it comes to showing affection oh my god!😭 I feel like they are naturally like this in their everyday life, even when it's not about romance though:) but i feel like y'all will find them cute for this for real:3 -

These ppl will prefer to say this way honestly even after the two of you start this relationship - no, definitely not because they don't like you. They rlly like u. A. Lot. So much it feels overwhelming to them. Don't make fun of them pls😤 - no, I don't feel like you will. Banter about it, yeah. But y'all love these kind of men, and you know how sensitive they are, and you will lovingly take care of their gentle heart❤️

So expressing things gonna start becoming extra when you're low🥺 they will feel like you just neeeed to feel that extra care and lob they have for u (all the time, they just keep it lowkey, to stay true to themselves. Like authentic) and they're here for your service ma'am🥺

they will RUN in fact, for your service. Smelling virgo juno vibes ifkyk;) in these cases, they will prefer to use two primary love language to express their love for you.🫶 And one is them will definitely be physical touch.

Like they would be the type to give you a massage or run a bath for you, when u don't feel really nice🥺 even without you telling them that it would feel nice, or that it would make you feel better.. they know it babe. They already know it, they already know you, how you function, what could help, and they be already doing it, without you having to left a finger.🙏 They feel like a blessing fr!...

I also think they are a big fan of cuddling in general, and they would be at it even More, when they know you're exhausted, mentally or physically.

They would pick you up from the ground (theoretically or literally) and let you lay your head on their chest, while they would be whispering sweet little nothings or supporting words into your ear (flexing their second love language aka words of affirmation!✨) They would do this only for you. To soothe your tired soul and body❤️ they are a keeper. you should keep them too❤️

𝓰𝓲𝓿𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓬𝓻𝓮𝓭𝓲𝓽𝓼 𝓼𝓮𝓬𝓽𝓲𝓸𝓷

silver stars falling gif dividers credits to the(ir) owner(s). gonna upload this part when i find it

casette pictures are from pinterest

white bow + lace divider credits to the(ir) owner(s). gonna upload this part as well when i find it

pink hearts gif divider is from @anitalenia

pink floral + checkered dividers are from @diviniyae

[inbabylontheywept]

Okay so I very unwisely got tumblr because of a girl and things with said girl are confusing af but basically being on tumblr doesn't affect that anymore. I was thinking about getting off of it but I found your posts and they alone are worth staying on for.

I can't figure out how to find other blogs to follow though.

I figure since you're the thing that I like about the site, I might also like the things you like, so i was wondering if I could ask you to share some blog recommendations?

Easiest recomendation is my older sister, @lizardho. Very similar childhood, very similar writing style, if you like my writing you'll love hers too. I consider this her finest piece at present. It's an easy rec. We are incredibly similar people.

If we're doing similar writing styles, me and @foldingfittedsheets often get mistaken for each other. No relation, but again, we do a lot of slice of life work. From all her works, this is my favorite story and this is my favorite comic.

For my standard writers pack, there is teaboot, prokopetz, and gallustromegalus, and derin. They tell a lot of anecdotes and they all have great styles. Gallus is probably my favorite but it's fierce competition and they all come highly recomended. Not tagging them because they have huuuuuuge followings and I don't want to pester them.

For people that I consider significantly underrated: There's @drenamigmo / @drenamigmofridgemagnets . Amazing storyteller. Small body of work publically available right now, but the two stories in this post are just achingly beautiful. They have an AO3 called "aterriblewriter" (I need to give them more shit for that, they are actually incredible) that I check kind of obsessively for new writing. They also write league fanfic, so if that's your thing, I'm jealous. I wish I loved league more just so I can enjoy more of their writing.

I really like @miseria-fortes-viros. She has two stories from Greek mythology that I consider the two finest uses of tumblr itself as a medium. You'll see it if you clickeither of these: This one is about Orpheus and Eurydice, this one is about Icarus. She tells anecdotes sometimes, and this one about a welding class she took is again, fantastic, but it's not her bread and butter, it's just a rare and unexpected treat. You also get to watch her slowly dissolve into madness as everyone with a bad literature take seems to go out of their way to die by her hand.

If you like my earlier fiction works, @spyglassrealms writes scifi that is frankly much better than mine. I followed him to learn about worldbuilding. I stayed for his worlds.

And for my final note: I am not normally a big anime guy, and I generally avoid the stuff. BUT. But. This piece by @hakeism is one of the most bafflingly moving stories I have ever read. One of my favorite cultural changes of the last decade has been a general shift away from irony back into sincerity, and Hakeism writes so incredibly sincerely about absolutely ridiculous things that it warms my heart. They take life seriously, even when it's stupid, because life is always stupid and yet it must be engaged with. The fact that it is stupid is no excuse for refusing to participate in the world. We must, in the words of Fraggle Rock and Ben Folds Five, do it anyway.

[nobylerdoubt]

Let's Analyze - Mileven's Gender Roles

Quick Note: A while ago I had you vote on what the next Let's Analyze post will be. The vote decided the next post would be about Season 2 Mileven. Given that I am now hosting a weekly Stranger Things rewatch party, I'll be re-watching the whole of Season 2 soon, and I would rather wait until I can watch the season as a whole to make a Season 2 analysis, rather then going through to watch the clips individually.

So I somewhat recently finally watched @teambyler's 3 hour byler legal defense video. Many of you already know this, but it's VERY good.

One point made in the defense of Mileven in this video is that Mike and El's relationship is unique in storytelling because they actually have reversed gender roles.

El takes on the masculine role as the one who has strength and power, and Mike takes on the feminine role of emotional support and caretaking (think about season 1 - Mike literally housed, clothed and fed her). Mike talks about this in the van scene.

In our VHS Club Discord Chat, @zarzar769 and @noneedtoargue1994 talked about how we can use these reversed gender roles to understand the flaws of their relationship better.

So I don't know if it's a universal thing or if its because I'm a woman, or a liberal, or whatever combination of circumstances - but I have a tendency to understand the perspective of a woman in heterosexual relationship conflicts, over that of the man.

And I feel like this seems to be a common experience when it comes to Mike and El's relationship. A lot of people call Mike an asshole, asking how could be so obtuse, so mean.

We understand where El comes from a lot more.

When we flip in genders and consider it in a new way, we can see their relationship a bit more evenly, and better understand how they are mutually bad for each other.

In this post we're gonna focus on the fights and conflicts in Season 4:

Rink-o-Mania

Mike: Holy shit, El... What did you do? What did you do?!

Now in this scene it is easier for us to see El's side of this, and judge Mike for yelling at her. We've seen what Angela has done to El, at school, on the rink, and moments before hitting her with the roller skate. We understand El's perspective here, and Mike can seem kind of obtuse for not understanding why she did what she did.

But look at this scene with a flipped gender perspective: Mike has just watched her boyfriend hit a girl (someone who we perceive to have less strength and power then El) hard enough to cause her to bleed. For a man, who has more strength and power than the person they've hurt, no amount of hurt the other person has caused them would justify this kind of violence. From this perspective, is it easier to understand why Mike would be horrified and accusatory?

I'm not saying what El did was right or wrong, regardless of what gender she is. These situations hold a lot of nuance.

"From Mike"

I've recently gone more in depth with this argument in this post.

In this scene, again, we're meant to empathize with El. She's been bullied and Mike wouldn't understand. She withholds the information that she's being bullied because while Mike is here she just wants to pretend everything is okay.

But from the flipped gender perspective we can contextualize why she's hiding this from Mike a little bit more. El is the man, he is strong, and has people in his life who expect and rely on him to remain strong - including, and perhaps especially, his girlfriend. Therefore, he can't let this weakness affect him, and he especially can't let his girlfriend see that this weakness effects him.

Does this seem like something you've heard before?

On the flip side you have Mike, the girlfriend, who wishes El would have told her about the bullying, because she understands - she could have helped him.

In this argument you also get El denying Mike's experience with bullying, saying that he doesn't understand. On a semi-unrelated note Mike and El actually have a conversation similar to this in season 1 episode 3:

But looking at this conversation with a flipped gender perspective, what we see is El not letting his girlfriend in - not letting her know his true feelings and struggles, because she can't understand. Why wouldn't she?

To phrase it how I phrased it in our discord chat - you'd be telling this girl that she should has an emotionally unavailable boyfriend. But it's Mike, the boy, who isn't noticing El, the girl's emotions, so instead we blame him for not noticing her feelings. he's not allowed to be frustrated because he should have known.

I'm not saying what El or Mike did was right or wrong, regardless of what gender she is. These situations hold a lot of nuance.

Conclusion

Both El and Mike are responsible for the deterioration of their relationship.

El holds the power in the relationship - both literal and figurative. He is stronger and more powerful than Mike, but she also is the sole reason they're in a relationship at all. She's the reason when they break up, and the is the driving force when they get back together. She feels a need to be strong, to be Mike's superhero, and that comes with the emotional burden of feeling like a monster and feeling as though she can't express her feelings with Mike.

Mike is not in the power position and he wants to be; he doesn't necessarily more strong or more powerful the El or any partner, but he wants to be needed. He wants to feel like he has a say in their relationship rather than everything being out of his hands. The one aspect of their relationship where Mike has ever felt needed is being in the care position - when El needed him for protection, for shelter, for food, for emotional support, and now she doesn't. Which makes him frustrated - frustrated that she won't let him help her, and frustrated that he feels he can't do anything for her. Which leads him to, at times, ignore her needs out of frustration - kind of like, 'well you don't need me anyway, so why should I try?'

No matter who's "side" you're on, this relationship isn't healthy for either of them.

Tag List: @a70smatthew @maddyxroses

[wafflexdguy]

Cracks In The Mirror

Featuring some Pomni x Reader Headcanons!

NOTE: So- uh... My drawing pad isn't working with the PC for some reason, so until I get a new PC there isn't going to be any drawings for right now. Sorry.

Edit: Grammar and some corrections

Source: pomni (fanart) : r/theamazingdigitalciru

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When you first entered the Circus, likely months or weeks after Pomni, you took it like how everyone else did. Denial, bargaining, looking for an exit that wasn't there, Caine's bullshit, the whole thing. When others were at the forefront of your arrival like Ragatha or Jax (who was there to tease you), Pomni kind of just... sidelined herself.

She really wasn't sure how to deal with your situation. For your case in this particular scenario, all of the attention you were receiving -good and bad- was all too much for you. You didn't want to be alone, not really; so the alternative was hanging out with either Gangle or Pomni. In this case, you chose the latter.

Initially, she inquires if you need to talk about your present situation. When you don't respond, she takes the hint and realizes you just want some silent company. She doesn't mind, not really. It's sort of nice being with someone she can somewhat relate to when she first arrived.

You calmed down eventually. When you did, you started to talk with Pomni more and more. More out of appreciation for her helping you out, probably but it's not like she was against your company regardless of your reason.

The more and more you got to know ech other, the more and more she grew close to you. It wasn't just one conversation and it was like, 'well I'm now smitten for this person.' it was a process in which you kind of weirdly didn't leave her alone for a while. Only for about a week before you finally grew comfortable talking to people like Ragatha and Zooble and Gangle. After that you still occasionally talked to her.

She considered you one of the people who would catch her in her fall.

Being said, she's the one who eventually -however slowly that may have been- approaching you more and more. She wouldn't have really hesitated to approach you earlier if it weren't for Jax teasing her about "Oooohhhhh, Pomni has a new friend!" Eventually she just ignored him.

You two had things in common. Whether that just be not being very good in social situations, too blunt for your own good, or just having the same job, she eventually grew to like you more than just a friend the longer she was talking to you and the more she got to know you. Similar interests and such.

She started hanging around you a lot more often. Sometimes not saying anything and just appreciating your company. Very much showing some bias to some extent. Saying hi to you first even if you didn't say hi to her for whatever reason, and choosing you as a partner in whatever adventure the circus was doing. She doesn't sideline the other circus members mind you, she's just attempting to show her affection towards you.

One of her negative traits though is that she does kind of cling to you a bit too much sometimes. If/when you need(ed) to be alone, she accidentally rationalizes it in her head that you needed her to be with you. No, she didn't. You didn't yell at her, but just kind of bumped her off. She got the hint.

It's something that just kind of happened one day. No real declaration of love or anything, it's just you two were in a relationship one day and didn't look back. When you two were in an adventure together and had some alone time, she just absentmindedly laid her head on your shoulder (assuming you're her height). When you returned the gesture, that's when both of you realized that was that.

Congrats, you're in a relationship with a jester. What comes with your red and blue companion are as follows: Fangs, angry looks towards Jax when he fucks with you, more invitations and Caine trying to hook you two up because he didn't know you two were already dating. To be fair, neither did the rest of the cast.

She hopes that she can get out of here with you, to do all of the things you two wanted to do in the real world and not be confined by the circus. She'll try like hell to get there one day, but for now you have each other.

[guillotinesandroses]

Royal Loyalty; Leona Kingscholar + Male Reader

You know you have no need to follow him. So he has told you many times, again and again. Even so, you still wind up right by his side regardless of where he goes. He held off on accepting his admission to Night Raven College, and so did you. When he decided to go after a year of waiting, you followed suit. 

His lethargy sends pained shocks through your body time and time again. Where he could be taking the world by storm, he wastes away in his bed, in the gardens, wherever he feels like sleeping. You wonder what his dreams are like. Knowing him as well as you do, you have a hunch that he wears a crown of gold, roaring commands from his throne. Back when you were children, this desire was satiated by the flower crowns you made him. He would grin and tell you what to do, making you his right hand man who he fought with. 

Unfortunately, such grandiose dreams are quick to shatter with time. Due to birth order, it did not matter how powerful or intelligent he could become. He would never be king. Leona did not just give up on his dreams of becoming king, he gave up on life altogether. After that you did everything in your power to help him change his perspective with no success at all. 

This was far above your realm of influence, as often as he sought your advice. Still when he finally gained an interest, drive to succeed at just  this one thing, your brows scrunched to show your inner conflict. "This isn't like you, I have to say." 

"Are you doubting me now, (Name)? Will you turn against me?" 

"No, I won't. I'm only making an observation. Usually you would look down on foul play like this." 

"I'm only doing this because I have to. If you're not going to help me, then stay out of my way." 

"I do intend on helping you. I merely wanted you to know I disapprove of this. 

Although he did not back down from his plans of sabotage, you could tell your words had affected him. There are very few times you have questioned his judgement after all. Still he went through with it, and still he sank with his flawed ship. You watched it go down and helped him up, pulling him back to the disappointing, sandy shores of reality. 

His tired eyes turn to yours, words falling from his parted lips with shallow breath. "Will you leave me now, (Name)? After all I've done..."

"I'll always be here. Wherever you go, whatever you decide to do." 

"Then stay... stay with me. That's an order." 

His consciousness does not hold long after that. You remain by his side as requested, even when prompted otherwise. Some of your friends wonder why you would put up with such a thing, why you would go the extra length. You know better, know that was giving you permission rather than issuing an order. He knew you would have been worried sick had the doctors barred you from seeing him from time to time. 

Holed up by his side in the nurse's office, it is quiet for once as you turn the page of your potions book. Although you managed to have your wish to stay with your friend granted, you still had to keep up with your schoolwork. Being a model student has its perks. Teachers are much more lenient if you have no history of misdemeanor. The silence is more than welcome, only broken by his soft breaths and rustling of paper. 

Eventually you place your books aside, leaning over him beside his bed. Brushing a dark strand of hair away from his face, you admire his peaceful, handsome features. Before long, emerald eyes peer open, staring into yours. 

"About time you realized I was awake," he grumbles. 

"How long were you waiting for me to do that?" You let out a soft chuckle. 

"I wasn't waiting." He huffs before leaning into your touch. A tender moment passes before he speaks again. "You know already that you don't need to be here. You can return to Sunset Savannah. No matter what my brother says about it, I'll be fine on my own." 

"I wasn't ordered to do this, Leona. I formally requested to be sent here." 

He blinks in almost concealed surprise. Casting his gaze aside, he frowns in an uncharacteristic manner. "All I do is waste the chances I'm given. You'd be better off serving him or some other royal family. At this point you have the qualifications to go anywhere." 

"I have more than enough money to retire by now, Leona." You laugh. "Even if I were to leave, this is not the line of work I would continue in." 

"Why are you still here then?" 

"You're the only one I want to serve. If I can't do that, I'd sooner try something else altogether." Your smile stuns him to silence. 

He stares at you, and a minute passes. Eventually he shrugs, grumbling half to himself. "I guess I have no choice. Loyalty like this is hard to come by." 

"No choice but to do what-?" You yelp as he drag you in by the arm. Head hitting the covers, he soon cradles it and guides it to his chest. Your face burns up as your eyelashes brush against his skin. 

"To court you. You're fine with that, right?" He murmurs into your skin. 

Squished up against him, you try to compose yourself by clearing your throat. "I... I am... this is just a bit... sudden. Though if this is your way of confessing... I feel the same way." 

He lets out an unassuming breath, but you recognize it as a sigh of relief. "Good. Expect a promise ring after about five dates. That's as far as my patience goes- I've waited long enough for you." 

[willoryn]

"I have an idea of a scenario where it's the other way around" well you HAVE to tell us now!?

BSBXCNND I GUESS I DO DON'T I

The idea was that you are staying in the hotel proper and at some point you start noticing small things~

For instance, you notice a little peice of your favorite candy gets left on your pillow every night instead of the little mint that housekeeping usually leaves. You remember thanking Niffty at some point, assuming she must have found out or Charlie wanted to give everyone a very personalized experience!

But she insisted that she didn't have anything to do with it. It was a super top secret special instruction by someone in the hotel! But she's not telling who 🎶 You remember how warm your face got when she playfully teased that you have a secret admirer~

You weren't so sure about that. A secret admirer? Here in the hotel? Yeah right.

But as much as you wanted to just write it off as just a random act of kindness from an anonymous resident... it soon becomes very evident that that is not the case.

Next it was the towel animal in the shape of your favorite animal on your bed. Room service would randomly bring you a bouquet of flowers or a box of chocolates. None of it signed for. No one will tell you who it's from.

This person is a complete mystery to you. And it was driving you crazy. Not that you hated the gifts or anything! You were very flattered actually. You just wanted to know who in all the seven rings of hell it could be?

Then, one night, you return to your room. You were expecting to see the usual: candy, flowers, and towel animal. All waiting for you. At this point, they had become so normalized in your routine that you started to look forward to them... even if you didn't know who they were from. Is felt nice to be thought of so sweetly~

But instead of all the usual gifts... you receive a note on your pillow. It's a white card with a gold border around the edges. It's written in a striking red ink.

It reads:

My dearest one,

I sincerely hope my little gifts have not troubled you. I was nervous about how you'd react at first. I feared you might reject them or they would somehow frighten you... I know how it feels to be a little unsure about the intentions of others. But I promise I don't intend any harm! I would never want to cause you any stress or discomfort. I just simply want to make you smile.

We may have only interacted a handful of times since you arrived at the hotel, but you have quickly started to occupy my thoughts... and I must admit you have become the object of my affection. And I greatly enjoy showing you those affections from a distance. It makes me happy to see that you accept them.

I'm really sorry for admitting this in such a cowardly way. You deserve to be told face to face... but I worry about what would happen if you knew my true identity.

I would really miss you if you left.

Anyway, I've rambled long enough! If you'd like these little gestures to end, I understand. Just fold this note in half and leave it on your nightstand and it will be done.

Yours ♡

Your eyes go over the words again and again in disbelief. Niffty was right all along. You really did have a secret admirer. You almost couldn't believe it. And as frustrating as it was that the letter wasn't signed, you were still more focused on wracking your brain trying to figure out who it could be... "only interacted a handful of times." Who does that narrow it down to!?

This was going to bother you all night. But now you also had a decision to make.

Fold the note and put an end to your secret admirer's little gestures of love... or let them continue?

The choice is yours~

[fandomsmadness]

TBHX episode 12 rant

Ngl I'm disappointed in a multitude of things this ep, but as always there is timeline and worldbuilding to keep me going.

Biggest dissapointments:

The parent thing was about Liu Zhen? It wasn't even anything big? Idk, but I thought Queen being a journalist's daughter would not be a big bad secret with the level of fame she had since she was a teen. Big letdown

Like I was hoping last ep, the Bowa/Queen rivalry wasn't used to comment on the patriarchy pitting women against women (it's still there if you squint, but that was the case last ep too) and instead was just a flashy showdown

We concluded the Queen arc but we still don't know enough about her as a person! This has to be the least fleshed hero in the lineup so far. Hello, this is the no. 2 and top-ranking female hero, we need more juice than this!

No X :( [this one is deeply personal and totally biased, and should not be taken seriously]

I have also decided I am categorically a simp. I don't think this requires elaboration.

On to what I liked, which may somewhat contradict my disappointments because they're two-sided.

Firstly, while I didn't like that Bowa/Queen was never really addressed as being a manufactured rivalry (would've been nice for the two to, idk, talk?) the fight scene was visually fantastic. Musically, it was heartbreaking. And storywise, it was tragic. So so tragic. I hated it. I loved it. My feelings have not reached a consensus on the matter. And I was also, very unrealistically, hoping for X to swoop in/change animation/do something because this was just downright painful to watch sometimes.

But someone please tell me why Bowa's attacks are all suddenly X-shaped. Once? Sure. Twice? Coincidence. Three is just too many.

Secondly, we may not know much about Queen as a person, and in particular she's lacking a lot of background details (you lied to Cyan, we all saw it), but I do like what I've seen and how her principles tie into her hero personality as someone who makes rules, abides by them, and uses them to strengthen her own resolve.

BUT

This sounds an awful lot like wanting to dismantle the existing system, Queen. Hmmm...

What on earth are these symbols?

We needed Bowa to explain to us what your power is??? Although I admit, that power is neat and once again, very much in character

And yet another nod to Queen's trust coming from within (see X breakdown from last ep for more details)

She's also terribly terribly loyal to her friends, believes in taking the right way to the top, rejecting Cyan's offer of good luck multiple times, and is overall not as cold as the last ep wanted us to believe.

Thirdly, Bowa was fleshed out pretty well for a secondary character, and her arc was just...tragic. i have many thoughts, not all of which can be articulated right now.

Side note does having trust value affect how monstrous fear can make you?

Other things:

The Commission has a... police force equivalent?

DOS is investigating X lmao. Idk why this is funny to me, but it is. Who is Nine tho? X knows Uncle Rock? (Boo) X doesn't have a good relationship with Uncle Rock? (Yay!) Who is the other hero? And why is Wreck there? Right colours, wrong ship DOS!

As much as the fight scene was visually appealing, so much property damage I cry. That must've cost the economy billions

BIG JOHNNIE? What are you doing in the cliffhanger? Loli's arc is next, get back in your lane!

And speaking of the upcoming Loli arc, we've seen next to nothing of her so far...?

[skzfaker]

I'm fighting through the pain as it keeps getting louder I'm broken, faded like a withering flower But in the pouring rain, that's when I get stronger Push me off again

[goodnight-moonmoon]

Holy shit. Moonmoon can't help but freak out at seeing the red heart in Ben's eye. He. He didn't know that the sun could do that. The jester was already filing away this information excitedly. Oh, he adored Ben so much that it was ridiculous. His tail was wagging again, and it—the high he was having was so high that he didn't feel like any of his energy was draining. He just was so. Head over heels for this bot. Oh god, actual. Feelings? Question mark?

That didn't mortify him as much as he thought it would. Haha.

The void bot didn't even pull his fingers out of Ben's mouth. He was more than happy to just leave them in there, and. Once again. He really would've wanted for Ben to bite him, and he nearly considers asking this time out loud before. Stopping. He wasn't going to do that. Having wants? Hahahaha. No. He simply wanted to make the other animatronic happy because that made him also happy, just seeing how the sun would react, and it's not like his wants were important anyway. The butcher was already beginning to mean a lot to him, if not a ton already, and. He just . Hhhh.

"That's what it's called," Moonmoon easily agreed, nodding his head. That's all he can imagine. Something like a cat purring. And is he... stammering? It sounds like his words are breaking apart, not exactly stuttering, but it's so cute to just. Oh, he has to tease Ben more. "I can't believe you're so easily affected," he murmured. If he had a mouth on his face right now, he would be grinning. "I can hear your fans, you know. You're so cute, just so pretty. I love hearing you."

He was losing his train of thought, honestly. Speaking was becoming a bit harder, mostly because he just wanted to feel Ben. To just play with him. It surprises him when his hands—both of them—were moved to cover the sun's face, but he jingles so easily and he's so very pleased with this turn of events. "Aww, such a sweet bot likes my touch? Oh, you're just so adorable, I could eat you right up. I have a sweet tooth, I could. Hhhh. I'm so glad we met, I just." Okay, do not say that you want to know everything about the butcher because that might be taken poorly. "Hhhh. You're so gorgeous. I want to pick you apart and ignore that I just think you're so interesting and I think you'd be very pretty covered in blood but you're very pretty in general and." Despite not using his lungs, the smaller bot was panting from saying a lot at once.

He was rambling. Ohhh he was fucking rambling. He just shut up, moving his fingers and going back to tracing and teasing Ben's rays. Yes, he was. Insane. He could hear the effect he had on the sun, and he was going to make it worse. Even if it was the last thing he did. Okay, that miiiight be an exaggeration but. Moonmoon really did like Ben a lot. A vvery normal amount. Hhauhahggh.

Moonmoon never left the void for one simple reason: he was scared.

Well, fuck him in particular, because he just so happened to have a high that made him feel so? Giddy? Despite being tired. He had taken a random spin of worlds that interested him, and, soon enough, the void had tore itself open and created a rift into a different universe.

Which led to now, as the jester skipped out of it, jingling, into a dark alleyway. He really hadn't thought this through, had he? The bells gave him away as he found himself in the shadows of tall buildings.

And. He uh, happened to be pushed out of his void tear near a... daycare attendant model?

He couldn't tell what was happening, really.

So, he did what any only-somewhat-self-preserving bot that liked these particular models would do: he went towards the daycare attendant animatronic, at least making out the shape of rays in his silhouette. Huh, how fun!

@goodnight-moonmoon

Ben didn't expect visitors. All he expected was finishing the dissection of this strange specimen and heading home. The soft jingle of bells made him pause, hands covered in blood and viscera. His head turned slowly, 180 degrees, and he fixed his lamplight-yellow eyes on the stranger. The stranger with no face. How interesting. He wondered what their insides looked like. All he did, though, was stare.

[torchickentacos]

we're at the point in the semester where my therapist asked me how bad it would be if I just turned this assignment in late and had a Prescribed Mental Health Night™ instead

[swinging-stars-from-satellites]

it's like. everything happens so much. it's all happening right now but at the same time nothing is happening whatsoever. it's a liminal space of an existence. it's slowly crushing me under the weight but when I look up there's nothing actually bearing down on me. there shouldn't be any weight. something is wrong but nothing has happened. I'm simultaneously overwhelmed and utterly bored. nothing is happening and maybe that's the everything that's happening. maybe the everything is the nothing. we aren't there yet but it's all so imminent. either everything is going to crash down or nothing is. I'm just waiting to figure out which.

[rivilu]

ok you know. the Ellu in dav crossover au is very fun but i am a little bit enchanted by the concept of him AND Rynn at once. Best of both worlds in a sense.

[stillfruit]

i love not knowing if i'll ever be healthy again i love all of the time i've used to move my body become nothing i love spending my adulthood wasting away year after year for various reasons baby!

[nowendil]

whooooo having an anxiety attack about covid. again 👍

[autistic-shaiapouf]

Beginning to really wonder how much of my financial concern is manufactured and handed to me as opposed to something I'm genuinely concerned by

[i-am-a-fish]

Sex Ed Time

ok I'm gonna tell you about some things that might happen if you are transitioning m->f. this is not a comprehensive list just my own experience, be sure to do your own research I just really wanted to voice how this affects me because I think open discussion about this type of stuff is just more helpful for everyone rather than keeping it private

BOOBS HURT WHEN THEY GROW

your sex drive (libido) will probably go down a lot

facial hair is very hard to get rid of

my go-to gender affirming clothing is high-waisted jeans. I suggest going to a goodwill or some sort of cheap store that lets you try on clothes to figure out what you like

muscle mass will go down, fat will be redistributed

boobs do all sorts of crazy stuff when you run / exercise

overtime your skin will get softer, you also might smell nicer, and I've been told it can thin body hair but I don't really see it all that much 🤷

your brain chemistry can change when you reduce testosterone and increase estrogen, there are lots of factors that contribute toward any changes to your personality, but hormones can have an impact as well. for me this is a good thing because I struggle with allowing myself to feel emotions sometimes, no matter how hard I tried I was never really able to get myself to cry. I've gotten closer to being able to cry since I started transitioning though and that makes me very happy

this is a slow process that can take several years, ultimately you're going to be in your body for several years regardless, so if this is something you want it's definitely something you should try to pursue if possible. the time will pass anyways, and it does feel nice to work towards something that can make you happier.

also this is very important, you don't need to do any sort of hormone replacement therapy in order to be trans. not everybody can access HRT, and for those who can access it, not everybody wants to take on all the changes that come with treatments. you don't have to chemically or physically change your body in any way in order to deserve respect

all right that's all I have for right now feel free to add anything in the comments, I would especially like to hear from trans men what your experiences have been, I think openly talking about these types of things can really help some people